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when will my longing for you end
when will the sun rise up again
the voices in my head got me asking over and over
when will this pain ever subside
when will i be strong enough to fight
its time to realize that you're gone
and theres nothing i can do

sometimes i close my eyes to see
the ways things use to be
its all for me to let it all go this way to end the story here
but i will always hold on to what we used to have
cause i i know eventually my life will carry on

I've been waiting for a long time For someone who could make my dreams come true You've been with me for a long time Helpin' me through, all that I have gotten through And I'm thankful for everything You do for me boy, and you know that I love you I'll take care of anything you'll ever need Ooh, when you're all by yourself baby I got you If you need someone to call baby I got you There's no need to be lonely I got you And I know that you got me too, boy Ohh ah, yeah Ohh ah, yeah When you smile at me, it makes me weak I can count on you boy to be there when I'm fallin' I didn't have to change for you to see That nothing can ever come between you and me I need you for who you are And all that I am when I'm standin' next to you I'm so lucky to have you in my life Ooh, when you're all by yourself baby I got you If you need someone to call baby I got you There's no need to be lonely I got you And I know that you got me too, baby Your heart is with me and with nobody else I'm tryin' to keep my cool but I can't help it I can't imagine life without your love Now and forever you're all I'm thinkin' of When you're all by yourself I got you There's no need to be lonely And I know that you got me too, boy Ooh, when you're all by yourself baby I got you If you need someone to call baby I got you There's no need to be lonely I got you And I know that you got me too, boy Ooh, when you're all by yourself baby I got you If you need someone to call baby I got you There's no need to be lonely I got you And I know that you got me too, boy Ooh when you're all by yourself You need someone - call me I got you When you're all by yourself I got you, I got you, I got you

wonderwall

i can't believe how long it's been since i've written a xanga entry. i used to be so addicted. it makes me wonder where all my emotions go now that this is no longer my outlet.

as most people know, i'm back in good ole kansas. so, i traded culture for stability. can you blame me? i'm back in school. i completely changed my major bc i had nothing to lose. as janis joplin so eloquently sang "freedom is when you have nothing left to lose." now, i'm studying sociology and accounting. go figure.

when it comes to my love life, that's the least complex part of the equation. chris aka "the wankie" and i are still together. we have decided that any type of separation is futile and probably impossible. we are a lot like an old married couple now. our bodies reflect that. lol you know how newlyweds look in their wedding pictures? then you see them 3-5 years later and things are looking kind of slack? yep, that's us. lol or at least how i see it. abercrombie and fitch just asked him to model for them. maybe it's just me and i have a complex. so be it.

i'm still growing a lot personally. right now, i'm questioning myself and my influences a great deal. i've become a semi-bitch. wow.

i'm in love with oasis...

damn, it's been such a long time since i've written anything on here. i guess that's bc i move around too much and i never have internet access. i am currently debating another move, this time possibly to atlanta. we shall see.

i have become such a hippie1 lol this whole roll-with-the-punches-go-with-the-flow-shit is crazy! i'm still a mess. you'd think that after all i've gone through i'd be able to relinquish everything easily. i'm still hard-headed as hell, but now my heart isn't so hard. i've gotten a lot better at defending myself, also. i finally got fed up with feeling like ppl were taking advantage of me and dumping their problems on me. i got smart, i snapped, i went OFF! lol then i felt better.

chris and i are still together. it will be 13 months as of july 14th. i love him so much. we have been through some stuff, but we've always been through it TOGETHER. he's always right by my side and i'm right there backing him up, too. this love is unbreakable for real. i luv my baby, yup yup i love my boy.

i won't make this too long cuz i know ppl hate reading long posts.

hollatchaguh

mz hurd

it's friday... i'm tryin to part-ay. i'm so sick of sittin in the house all the time. so, whether chris is here or not, i'm goin to my gurl ivy's house for the weekend and i'm gonna kick w/ her and vanh (aka choymymaster) it should be fun. ivy's rommate is somewhat of a model and she's goin to texas for the all-star weekend. i hate pretty girls. i'm excited for this weekend. i need a getaway and i think they're just the people to cheer me up!

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